Passion

For thou hast been 

As one, in suff'ring all, that suffers nothing;

A man that Fortune's buffets and rewards,

Hast ta'en with equal thanks; and blest are those

Whose blood and judgment are so well commeddled

That they are not a pipe for Fortune's finger

To sound what stop she please. Give me that man

That is not passion's slave, and I will wear him

In my heart's core, ay, in my heart of heart, 

As I do thee.  

Hamlet, Act III, Scene II

Us II

A goner, replaceble.

Time, consumable, yet, unstoppable.

Broken heart, scarred.

Proved the healing.

Yesterday,

we are overrated,

but not now,

not forever.

Hands still together,

on the same stone,

by the river full of salmon i sit,

praying for another chance.

the end for a greater start

Us I

Buzzed the crazy hornet,

reeled above bloody roses, one to another.

A bear roared to his reflexion,

by the river full of salmon.

Wondering i sat, on the slippery stone,

making grasp of my hands.

It was here,i made my pray.

No time existed only a space,

but a space, not empty, for one not two.

I swore that two hearts would not fit,

if only two to become one.

As long as the hornet loved the flower,

the bear sought the salmon,

for eternity it shall be, i said,

you and me as one,

together to occupy this mother earth.

to be continued.

Wish

The waves kiss the shore,

and the roots hug the land.

The rivers meet the ocean.

All come into touch,

by the name of nature.

Why do I need to be single?

When elsewhere out there,

everything's being mingled.

I see the sun warmth the earth,

the moonlight licks the sea.

Day and night themselves,

dancing to the beat of times.

No single man can stop them,

for they are immortal; immortal love.

So why I can't have your love?

for us only a mortal,

craving for an everlasting love.

I crowded my mind,

just by flashing all the above.

Wondering the nature's intimacy.

For the only thing i need,

and for what i want,

for what i wish for,

is my love to be granted.

A pair for every species, a space between every crowd, a silent between notes, and the list goes on..

Cognito

How will i love you?

I will love you as my breath,

as my blood rush in my vein,

it going on an on till my death.

I will love you as day and night,

brighten by sunshine by day,

and moonlight by nighttime.

I will love you as the ocean,

the surface seemed to freeze with cold,

but deep inside is still warm,

and full of life.

I will love you with all the senses i got.

i will love you unconditionally,

honestly, purely,

with the joys, the smiles, the tears.

I will love you,

for the rest of my life,

and if god does not forbid,

i will love you no less even afterlife.

Love may come, touch you on the shoulder, without warning.

Star

Catch a falling star and put it in my pocket,

never let it fade away, save it for a rainy day.
For love may come and tap me on the shoulder,
on some of the starless night.
Just in case I feel like holding her,

I already have a pocket full of starlight.

Perry Como - Catch a Falling Star

Love II

Jealousy is not part of love,

it is a bumpy road to a perfect love.

Love often kindness and never rude.

It is always patient and never frustration.

It is neither conceited nor selfish.

It does not take life but to conflate them.

Othergirl

When I talk with other girl,

I always think of you,

your words are keener than their words,

and they are gentler, too.

When I look at other girl,

I wish your face were there,

with its brownish eyes and fair skin

and straight black hair.

When I think of other girl,

dreaming alone by day,

the thought of you like a strong wind

blows the dreams away.

Modified from Sara Teasdale's Love Songs

Love

Dear long loss love,

I am strong,

I will break your heart,

unless you set me free.

Dear love now n forever,

I am a thief,

I will steal your heart,

unless you share it with me.

I know what I'm doing. I just letting it go.

Man

Who's bringing those roses,

to put it front of my door.

I did not wish any flowerished moment,

the wind just swept them in.

I caged my heart inside,

no body dared to touch it.

I did lock it hard,

but she dared breaking it open.

I heard a whisper far,

through my ears' wall it crept.

I could not resist the call,

the call I named love.

Behaved myself!

I'm no longer a boy.

I carried enough mud on my knees,

I tasted all the earthly sweets.

Do come love,

for u I ever need,

to fill this pot,

for so long it empty.

Do come love,

for now you no longer a stranger,

not for a once so called boy,

for now I'm a man.

Love is not a stranger, not if you never treat them so.

Nostalgia

Nostalgia tak pernah berasal dari kebencian. Ia menggerakkan kembali sesuatu yang hangat, sayu, berarti - seperti cinta lama.

Quoted from Goenawan Mohamad's

Failure

Yesterday, I may have failed.

Today, I wake up and take all the blames.

Tomorrow, let me walk out this world,

as the one who learn,

that failure is just one deep stream,

to an island of greatness.

One life, too many obstacles, in between, there is a way.

Worldly

Don't gain the world and lose your soul, for sometimes worldly can be infected. Then the wisdom here we can depend on, for him neither gold nor silver can be match. Worldly may hurt you in the head, or may blind your heart yet you physically unharmed. No exception to wise people for they suffer the same, but they just find ones worth suffering for.

Inspired from Bob Marley's lyric

Penerimaan

Jika kau mau, kuterima kau kembali
Dengan sepenuh hati
Aku masih tetap sendiri
Kutahu kau bukan yang dulu lagi
Bak kembang sari sudah terbagi
Jangan tunduk! Tentang aku dengan berani
Jika kau mau, kuterima kau kembali
Tapi untukku sendiri
Sedang dengan cermin aku enggan berbagi

Courtesy of Chairil Anwar, Maret 1943

Lembu

Terikat pada tiang sepi,

hidup hanya di tambatan,

diheret kau ikut,

ditolak kau akur,

Manusia kadang-kadang lembu

Sea

From the beginning of life,

god provided us with a sea of knowledge,

for human to embark on the journey,

seeking for self enlightenment.

Impossible to conquer half of the sea,

yet to have a liter of sea water,

and they know how to use em wisely,

then it should be enough to fill the cup of life.

Without wind or mechanical turbine,

deeper the sea, calmer it should be,

what else we could expect from a guru,

for him to be the like of the sea.

Yet to be an obsolete reality

True

A lot of confusions,

dwelling on those who see,

the true skin behind furred layer,

the beauty in ugly.

No effort at all to see,

just give up blindfold,

and make up mind,

for it to see clearly.

World isn't black or white,

or even fading her tones,

the colors are getting crazy,

the work of artist called human.

Green is nature, black is night,

I would say no no,

for they speak no one thing,

they speak for the one who thinks.

No one thing is absolute

Januari

Maka dengan rasminya,

tua lah kamo berdua,

jangan di khayal muda,

orang dulu 24 dah beranak dua,

kita 24 pun maseh tak mampu berdua,

mari-mari mencari si dia,

ha ha ha.

Selamat hari lahir,

Azleen Alias dan jua Nik Muhammad Yazid

Otak

Aku lalai memikirkan dunia,

kenapa ada yang menolak kelebihan otak,

sedangkan setiap otak walau sama physiologinya,

cognitifnya dinamis,

Mental manusia unik,

kadang-kadang tiada batasan,

yang membatasnya cuma kata-kata,

serta juga perlakuan,

Yang terbatas itu bukan mental,

tetapi sifat jahil manusia yang egois,

menampan keunikan ilmu pengetahuan,

memandang material sebagai guru,

Pandangan mental tiada limitasinya,

ia mampu mengubah kejahatan kepada tauladan,

kemiskinan kepada kepuasan,

selagi rasional menguasai emosi.

Melawan nafsu tidur

Women

O man granted without fear,

blessed with chanted mind,

protect for those in need,

who lived in all fears,

for being such a fragile overall,

such being called woman.

"stop violence against women"

love your mom, sisters and all women around you

Sun

A sun who shine,

and warmth the earth wherever he went,

was an example to those who think,

beyond reality.

staring at the sun

Self-titled

True modesty is the source of all virtues.
Prophet Muhammad

Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.
Leonardo da Vinci

As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler; solitude will not be solitude, poverty will not be poverty, nor weakness weakness.
Thoreau

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.
Confucius

Simplicity is the glory of expression
Walt Whitman

The aspects of things that are most important for us are hidden because of their simplicity and familiarity.
Ludwig Wittgenstein

The simplest things are often the truest.
Anonymous

working to the simplest

Dream

God gives us dream,

for us to live and learn beyond reality.

It is not merely fantasy,

just an extension to the real world.

just a post-dream complication

Diarrhea

Prut aku jua ada ragam nya. Sudah seminggu by productnya cair. Tak tahan bercangkung 5-6 kali satu hari, 10 minit setiap sesi. Dah jumpa doktor, tapi mungkin kerana beliau terlampau bijak, ataupun blajar tidak habis, diberi oleh beliau magnesium hydroxide atau ubat gastritis. Bahlul bukan?Aku yang tidak kurang bahlulnya, maka patuh la pada preskipsi yang beliau kasi, kunyah 2 biji 3 kali sehari. Sangat sedap. Seperti makan ubat gigi colgate. Tapi yang menariknya, perut terus berbunyi, makin rancak pun ada. Kepekatan toksah kata, maken banyak airnya. Lastly aku buat keputusan, untuk pegi jumpe doktor yang kurang bahlul, dengan harapan bukan gastritis diagnosis beliau.

Nak di jadikan cerita, doktor tu memang langsung tidak bahlul, bijak lagi tiptop dia punye medical skill. Oleh kerana terlalu bijak, aku pulak dimarah sebab datang lambat jumpe doktor. Kata beliau "xmolek kasi prut brona lamo2, nnti dia jadi sensitif. Mudah kene diarrhea lagi".Tetibe rasa bengang kat doktor sbelum ne datang. Tapi aku redha, asal kali ne doktor da xkasi ubat gigi. Kdai Yusof depan umah aku pon ade jual ubat gigi, xpayah nak pegi jaoh2. Kali ne memang da xde ubat gigi dah. Beliau kasi aku antibiotik n arang. walaupon arang pun tidak kurang mudahnya nk dapat, atleast benda tu boley kurangkan saket perut.

3 hari lepas tu, bersamaan hari ini, maka perut aku sudah tidak berbunyi bising lagi. By productnya jua da normal. maka suka lah hati. Malam ini boley pekena burger ridel lagi. Sekian.

Cerita tiada arah di tengahari sabtu

Highway

I love to share,

this story of mine.

Along with my friends,

some of us on the road,

going nowhere but ahead.

We just met actually,

after a long2-time-no-see.

We talked, we gossiped,

we shared, we laughed.

Sometimes our tears shed,

the tears of joyfulness.

For some reason,

we could not remember,

that most of the meet,

end with departure,

It happened like a sudden,

where we met the end of the road,

unprepared.

Gloomy silence filled the air,

our eyes staring nowhere but dwelling back

inside our head,

replayed the last few days' memories.

outside.

The cold rain rhythmically tapped the car roof.

...what a day.

the Green Kancil

Thoreau

"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me the truth."

Rephrasing Thoreau

Truth

People may talk,

right after looking at me.

their judgmental mind may see me,

as what they conditioned to see,

at those exclusive time,

but I don't care.

I may close my eyes,

and start to think,

blue printing what I suppose to be,

what I want to be,

what I see in me,

but that may not last long,

for what i see sometimes deceived,

so I don't care either.

What i care,

in all this being,

is to find something amongst what they see and what I see,

something legitimately mine,

that reflecting my own self,

something that I called,

the truth

"Know yourself, Know the truth."

Decoded from The Chinese

Pillow

This pillow, where I rested my head,

was the most legit witness,

of how my mind's operated,

before a complete shut down.

I could feel the cobwebs of thought,

trespassing the most private part of my myelinated nerves,

entering without knowing the exit,

dwelling sometimes make me dizzy.

If only I could grab some of it,

choose the one I prefer to think,

and synchronizing them,

so they could find the way out,

not unsolved.

Only then,

I could make used of my pillow,

as what they used to be,

give comfort and support,

to my sleepy head.

zzZZzzz

one hell of insomnia

Color

I can see colors everywhere,

But yet i cannot differentiate them,

Coz they look the same,

Colors that painted our dimension,

Give life to lifeless,

And redden the palest of things.

Inspired from We Are One

Kawan

Well you're magic he said

But don't let it all go to your head

Well I bet if you all had it all figured out

Then you'd never get out of bed

No doubt

All the thing's that I've read what he wrote me

Is now sounding like the man I was hoping

To be

Keep on keeping it real

Cause it keeps getting easier indeed

He's the reason that I'm laughing

Even if there's no one else

He said, you've got to love yourself

You say, you shouldn't mumble when you speak

But keep your tongue up in your cheek

And if you stumble on to

You better remember that it's humble that you seek

You got all the skill you need,

Individuality

You got something

Call it gumption

Call it anything you want

Because when you play the fool now

You're only fooling everyone else

You're learning to love yourself

Yes you are

There's no price to pay

When you give and what you take,

That's why it's easy to thank you

You...

Let's say take a break from the day

And get back to the old garage

Because life's too short anyway

But at least it's better then average

As long as you got me

And I got you

You know we'll got a lot to go around

I'll be your friend

Your other brother

Another love to come and comfort you

And I'll keep reminding

If it's the only thing I ever do

I will always love

I will always love you

Climb up over the top.

Survey the state of the soul.

You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.

Why not give it a shot?

Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up

Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you.

Song from Jason Mraz

Cahaya

Kau tak akan letak cahaya di belakang pintu,

kau tak akan letak dalam kotak,

kilauan nya untuk di amati,

untuk menerangi ruang dimensi.

Dimensi gulita tanpa cahaya,

menarik suatu yang kosong,

tiada kehidupan,

jika ada,

buta tanpa visi.

Bukan tiada tapi ada,

kau yang tidak mengerti erti cahaya,

tidak ambil cakna sebuah kehidupan.

kau adalah kau,

insan yang sedia gulita,

dalam dimensi bercahayakan api egois..

Ilham muncul bila kehilangan cahaya

Prologue

I read then i learn,

I do then i understand,

I write only then they'll learn,

I'll keep on writing then.

Sebuah prologue